There is a girl in my lab, joining the group 2 years later than me.

As soon as she came, she worked with me on a project called CARS. Since she was new, basically she was just like a helper during experimental time, doing stuffs I instructed her to do. And I processed all the data we got.

After more than half year, my boss would like her to take Raman project. (Just let you know that CARS is just one part of Raman project.) So I worked less and less on Raman experiment. But actually after my boss's decision, she started to work on other parts of Raman, such as regular Raman, Resonance Raman, SERS... and doing some sample measurements for other groups. It is about one year.

Now since there is no prominent result comming out of Raman project and no funding to support study either, my boss decided to close that project. But there is still one paper that can be written on. That is CARS which I did with her at the begining. My boss would like us to repeat the experiment again. Although she has been here for almost 2 years, she was still not able to operate our laser system which is the light source for the CARS. So I have to be involved in order to do CARS experiment. We did experiment together, and basically I still led the experiment, like we worked together at the beginning time.

So I feel I did more than 50% in CARS experiment, although the Raman project is hers. However, for the coming paper, my boss will list her as the first author and me as the second author. I talked to him about it. Although he admitted that I did more and knew more about our experiment, he won't change his mind. He just said to me that "it is not a significant paper, won't change too much for my future... I should focus on my own project, and that is the real one.... " All papers in my group are written by my boss. So I couldn't do anything about it, but accept it.

I am very unhappy with it. I did spend time and effort on that CARS project. And that girl knew less about it than me. Now they don't let me process the data, but ask me to help her to process the data, which is like I tell her every step to do and she does it. What is more, another group member appeared on my paper as the second author never worked on a whole experiment with me. He only did some lab work which I just don't have the strenth to do it. My experiment always took over 24 hours, and I am always in the lab overnight by myself.

I know that it is never fair in this world. But when it really comes to me, it is so hard for me to handle it. I feel very bad. I think ggddjjmm here have a lot of experience. Could you give me any suggestion to let me get through it? Also I don't know how to treat that girl. If there is no such a thing existing, I won't dislike her. But now I can't talk to her smilely especially when she asked me how to process the data. Some questions are really simple. I can't be patient. What should I do? Should I try to be happy and help her as much as possible, so we will still be friend? I am afraid that eventually she won't appreciate my help and think she has done the project in her mind. You know she is an american girl, thinking she is able to do the research although... I don't know how to do. I would really appreciate your help.

Now my boss tries to end her project, and then asks her to join one part of my experiment which is optical pump-probe. In my boss' plan, she will contribute her 100% time to the experiment, and I should contribute my 25% time to it. I wil lead the experiment, and she will follow. Frankly, my boss doesn't think she is good at experiment. It is the reason why my boss still doesn't allow her to operate on the whole laser system in our lab. You know, if you are not careful enough, bumping some optics, it will take days or months to realign the system. So he has to ask me to join the experiment. But I don't like the plan. I am afraid that in the end it will be the same result as the CARS. I do the epxeriment. I develop the idea. But finally I will be still the second author on the paper. I feel very unconfortable with it. I don't know how to talk to my boss to make sure I will be the first author on the paper if we get any result. I don't want him to think I am not a team-worker. But for me if I am not the first author, I really don't want to work as hard as I did on CARS.

I am very worried about these things recently. I can't say anyting hard to my boss. All after all, if he doesn't write a good recommendation for me, it will be very hard for me to find a job. What should I do?

看了半天才想起来raman是啥米。。。