Flashback - First Encounters

以下是我先生的 blog journal:

Our relationship did not start in a flash. In fact I was avoiding any personal interaction with Sarah from the start.

(背景：我和他当时 都已离了婚，但双方都不选择改变当时的家庭岗位，责任，贡献。于是选择不公开我俩的单身  availabel status. )

I am married. She is married. I didn’t want to start something that would lead to temptation, or more. So I stayed away.

I kept my interactions with her professional. But then two things happened. Looking back I am still surprised at how easily she slipped past all of my barriers. Surprised at how unexpectedly I fell into a relationship with her. Surprised at how quickly and deeply I fell for her. The first thing was small. In one of those large droning meetings I heard people coming in the door behind me. I saw Sarah enter and smiled at her reflexively.

She smiled back.

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Days pass. Her smile is stuck in my mind. Our group was on deadline. There was a lot of work to be done. I had a lot to learn about the business and how it was built. Some of that required me to work in groups that included Sarah. During this time I observed her and learned about her. She is very intelligent. Our company relies on her for many things. Even with all the deadlines and people running in and out asking questions, she maintains her calm, poise and grace. I was impressed. The second thing was quirky. I was working on an issue and had questions. My manager told me, “Go ask Sarah. She knows most things.” I walked up to Sarah’s desk and said, “Hello.” She looks up me with her brown eyes and says,

“Are you here for a social visit or work?”

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For a moment, I was dumbfounded. I immediately wished it were a social visit. But I was unprepared for this situation and simply answered, “Sorry, it’s work.” I asked my questions. She answered them thoughtfully and thoroughly. I went back to my desk. I wanted to go back and see her again and have a “social visit.” I cast around in my mind for an excuse to go back to her desk. Eventually I decided I didn’t need an excuse. I picked up the family picture on my desk and went back to her desk. I told her I had come back for a social visit. She smiled. We sat and talked for about 20 minutes. I talked about my family and she about hers. It felt very natural. I was sitting very close to her. I watched her intently as she spoke. I felt my desire for her stirring.

~ Sarah''s Sir

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I knew at this point Sarah was special. I needed to be on my guard to avoid any romantic entanglements. But my heart wanted her. So my head told me what I wanted to hear, “You can be just friends.” Ha! It sounded so reasonable, so plausible at the time. In hindsight it was neither. But I didn’t know that yet, so I was blissfully unaware of what was about to happen.

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Things are a bit of a blur at this point. I am running down a hill that was too steep. I do not dare stop because I will start to tumble and get hurt. All I can do is control my fall and hope I land somewhere safe.

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I recall going to a group lunch with her and we talked a lot. I tried to spread my attention around the table so I did not appear too focused on Sarah. I don’t know how obvious I was being at the time. I recall going to another lunch with just Sarah. She was a little surprised that it was just the two of us. She had assumed it was another group lunch. But she was kind and did not break her commitment. We sat and talked and had a wonderful time.

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